The joy of repentance is discovering a freedom and a life you never thought was possible. The guilt that you feel in confronting your selfishness is real, but you can’t stay there. Satan will try to convince you that guilt and repentance are the same thing — except one leads to a breakdown and the other leads to a breakthrough. Don’t get played: repentance can be a joyful chain-breaking journey if you see it through to the end.
It’s been a long time since I last wrote!
So many things have happened in the last few months. The Lord is indeed gracious and merciful. Rather than any long drawn out update on my life, I returned from my hiatus to share an anecdote I wanted to memorialize somewhere.
Today my mom made yet another amazing meal for me. We sat in the backyard to eat and enjoy the SoCal sun. I started to pray silently per habit when I’m with my family.
"Why aren’t you praying out loud?" My mom demands.
I am in shock for three full seconds. “Okay, let’s pray.”
After thanking God, my mom and I both said “Amen.”
It was the first time we prayed together.
This was a sample of God’s grace.
"Grumbling is a gauge of the human soul. It gauges our gaze on grace. It tells us that we’re not seeing grace.
…Grumbling is a symptom of a myopic soul. Selfishness has caused tunnel vision and has fixated on a craving(s). The soul has lost sight of the glory and wonder and splendor and hope that is the reborn, redeemed life and thus it is far too easily displeased. Grumbling is evidence of soul-vision impairment.
The opposite of grumbling in the soul is gratitude.
…Gratitude is a symptom of a healthy, expansive soul. The gospel of grace has given it panoramic vision, allowing it to see that this grace will be sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9) to meet every need (Philippians 4:19) when inconvenience, crisis, weakness, affliction, unexpected demand, suffering, and persecution hit. In fact, in all these things this grace will make us ‘more than conquerors through him who loved us’ (Romans 8:37).”
A man can no more extract blessedness out of sin than he can suck health out of poison.
—Thomas Watson (via thehumblerejoice)
“Grant me Your grace, O most merciful Jesus, that it may be with me, and work with me, and remain with me to the very end. Grant that I may always desire and will that which is most acceptable and pleasing to You. Let Your will be mine. Let my will always follow Yours and agree perfectly with it. Let my will be one with Yours in willing and in not willing, and let me be unable to will or not will anything but what You will or do not will. Grant that I may die to all things in this world, and for Your sake love to be despised and unknown in this life. Give me above all desires the desire to rest in You, and in You let my heart have peace. You are true peace of heart. You alone are its rest. Without You all things are difficult and troubled. In this peace, the selfsame that is in You, the Most High, the everlasting Good, I will sleep and take my rest. Amen.”
- Thomas A Kempis
This week, work has been hard. Taxing on the spirit and the body. How can I be a good witness at work in this condition? Must not lose heart!
"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.”
- Philippians 4:4-9